We've talked about healing from conditioning, and loving ourselves exactly as we are… but what if we have trauma from past relationships?
How does that affect our self image and self acceptance? How does that hinder us loving ourselves?
I've had to heal from this kind of trauma. For those of you who are familiar with my story, I make it no secret that I’ve been in two long term narcissistic abusive relationships that made me a shell of myself at the time.
The day I decided to take my power back (trust me…this wasn’t pretty by any means. In fact, I was rolling around my bed crying my little eyes out because I couldn’t take anymore and was sick of wearing my “pillar in the community” mask so please know that I’m not trying to make this sound “easy”)...but I digress.
This pivotal day, I walked away from it all. 7 figure home, life and business…all the things that made me stay in the first place. The safety of money. Of a lifestyle that I had so perfectly curated to hide what was going on behind closed doors. Left it all behind for peace of mind.
On this journey of rebuilding, I decided that if I HAVE to rebuild, I might as well do it my way! I might as well do it big, in a way that lights me up. From a place of getting back to me since I had worn a mask for so long, I no longer remembered who “she” really was.
I decided that I might as well heal money trauma while I was healing my other trauma so that I can get over the fear of being broke starting over from 0. I might as well have fun since I have to rebuild anyway! Right??
This led me to sharing my story with women and having conversations with other very successful women & women from all walks of life in fact, who secretly disclosed to me that they too had been with a narcissist but were terrified that they wouldn’t be able to rebuild…this turned into The Brave Way coaching and wa-lah (I think that’s how you spell it haha)...here we are today!
One of the most important things for me was getting to a place of worthiness.
Feeling worthy to be happy.
Able to live an orgasmic life.
And a big piece of this was understanding what parts in my human design allowed in conditioning and limiting beliefs that I wasn’t worthy. That attracted narcissists to me or led me to be attracted to narcissists…all very fascinating stuff! As I dug deeper, SO much was revealed to me.
All of this is to say…it’s very lovely to work on self-love from a place where all you’ve known was a healthy love your whole life.
It’s a whole other beast working on self-love from a trauma-filled place. It just looks different and that’s the reality which is why I’m choosing to focus next month on healing from narcissistic abuse so that you can allow flow in your life. Love. Money. Happiness. Pleasure. All of the things!
Until then, if any of the below sounds like you, make sure to watch Love & Your Human Design masterclass that dropped yesterday! You’re in for a treat!
Sound like you??
-Your relationship is…mediocre and you feel like it can be taken up a notch.
-You seem to attract the same types that are consistently inconsistent.
-You cycle through partners who seem to throw healthy communication out the window.
-You often wonder if your partner loves you for who you truly are OR you know you haven’t been showing your TRUE self in your relationship.
You’re curious about how:
-You are designed to love and be loved.
-To make sure you are attracting love instead of chasing it.
-To communicate with your partner according to both of your designs.
-You and your partner can feel seen in your relationship.
-To dive into connection charts for you and your partner to see how you connect energetically…beyond the physical.
-Your love language works according to your unique human design.
Treat yourself to the Love & Your Human Design Masterclass this weekend where I cover all of this and more! ❤️
For all my fellow skimmers😁 today’s love note dives into a little bit about my journey healing after narcissistic abuse and the Love & Your Human Design masterclass that dropped yesterday!
P..S. If you feel called to explore how embodying your human design shifts money blocks and allows for alignment, getting off the hamster wheel & prosperity with ease in your life & business, let’s talk!
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